deserie ! dont be sad already luh !
manda will be here for you (:
okay okay ?
dont think about those two .
if you have to ,
dont talk to them ?
well , i prefer one to the other.
dont ask me why .
you can come and ask me who i prefer .
but my prefrence is nothing .
it's who you prefer .
yeah . tht's all i have to say (:


baby ilu*

went to church yesterday :D
YAY. des and kenric came (:
i seriously have nothing to blog.
i'm like bored.
oh wells, went out ystd for lunch.
didnt eat. HAH.
but it was really funny.
my sis thinks kenric is hot.
and kenric thinks my sis is hot.
BUT, kenric arh, you CANNOT take my sis !
go take des luh !
she's yours ! HAHAHHA ! xD
had lunch with kenric, sis, nicole and jessie.
we went to kfc.
then me and sis sat there and stare at them eat.
hilarious. okay, i shall stop.
i'm too lazy to blog ! HAH.

went to vivo today (:
yeah. well morning was in sch.
had suzhou briefing.
yupp. then went to great wall.
go see the designer ! I LOVE MY NEW ROOM.
hahah ! (:
then went to g2.
mummy lost her way. hahha.
we were all talking in the car.
then blur blur lost our way.
hahah. anyways, reached at like 2 + , met vern and showed our thing.
yupp. funny lah ! and i was in sch uni .
oh wells. did the thing then went to vivo walk walk.
IT'S BIG OKAY ! REALLY BIG.
like seriously.
can shop the WHOLE ENTIRE day and you wont be tired.
i dont think you'll finish.
and i dont think i walked the whole thing.
still have MANY places i didnt walk.
it's okay. i'll go there another time (:
then erhm,
went to fetch gran.
then went to sakae sushi to eat.
man , my stomach had to be painful at tht time !
i ate like SUPER UBER LITTLE ):
my fav okay ! then eat so little.
wah lao, then felt like puking ONCE AGAIN.
i'm SO gonna see a doc.
i need to recover lah ! yupp.
so then erhm,
fetch gran home.
accompany her and watch tv.
then went home about 10 +
yeah so back home.
i'm tired.

ALL SMILES. :D
came back around 9 plus from class partyy ! (:
HAPPY HAPPY.
had alot of fun lah.
being at the station tht is (:
super uber funny pls.
cos like in the morning.
met in sch. talked about some stuff then we set off to buy things.
gosh, it was WAYYY too early to buy anything.
so we strolled around parkway. talked to him on the phone.
giving him a wake up call. hahah ! so sorry to disturb you frm your slp.
heard him get scolded cos he was using his handphone. opps.
so like we decided to have breakfast and chat. me and des tht is.
AND we called sandra and realise tht they cleared their station.
GOSH ! it was like DAMN DAMN fast luh ! so we chiong to get your stuff
and went back to des house. luckily we were earlier by a few mins.
did our prep then erhm, kendra's group came ! (:
choose their caskets then erhm they left.
reika's grp was outside waiting.
last was avina's grp.
by the time they were done, it started raining.
like WOW. so des lend them umbrella so tht they can go get their lunches.
ranined for i dont know how long. waiting for him to reply.
didnt reply, so i didnt actually care. just sat there stoning.
then see ariane paint her nails. i did it too ! :D
well, both des and ariane painted it for me, white and pink?!
abit weird lah but oh wells, and i have to take it out cos like i'm going to sch later ):
anyways, back to my point. painted the nails. cam whore abit more.
then i fell asleep. deep sleep tht is. and woke up only like 1 hr later.
went to parkway, strolled around, slacked. went to giant to get some stuff.
then went back to the beach. sat there and stared at the sea.
the rock-ey area, didnt feel like doing anything.
felt abit emo lah. and i almost cried. ohmygosh. des, you'll know why.
so dumb pls. oh wells, scrolled on the beach with des talking about them.
you guys seriously need to sort out your things, if you cant, forget it okay.
then we walked back, didnt want to eat again.
so i sat there and des brought drinks and ruffles over.
never eat, just drink. sat there and cam whore and look at the sea + listen to music.
i seriously didnt feel like doing anything.
is like a class party became someone tht is rather...emo for me.
oh wells. then erhm, it became darker,
got a call for one of them . he couldnt make up his mind.
so i say if he wanna come, he can, if he dont, forget it.
yeah, rather moody.
ohwells. then erhm, they called say tht they are coming.
so me des and sandra went to parkway to fetch them.
walk walk, went to old chang kee to buy sotong, cos sandra want.
then erhm went to basement to but ribena.
cos i needed glucose ! hah.
well drank abit then cannot take it.
dont know why. felt like puking AGAIN.
GOSH. well , they came , he came,
i so knew it. hahaha.
then walked back to the beach.
and everyone was leaving !
so fast okay ! rarr.
it was like 7 + only..
early pls.
so well, went to the pit, those two were hungry but no food left.
hahaha ! poor you,
then sat at the rock area.
wow, it was dark but fun lah !
tickle tickle tickle.
and des got carried by kenric ! HAH.
so funny ! kai wanted to carry me but i squat down !
i'm a genius aint i ? LOL.
so dumb, then run here and there in the dark.
i couldnt see ANYTHING.
super uber dark pls.
hahah !
then mum called
had to go.
then all of us walked over to parkway side.
mum and sibs came and they ran away.
funny luh ! hahahah !
so yeah. enjoyable day ! LOVES;

I'M GOING FOR CLASS PARTY LATER !
hope it's a success ! *beams*
its like gonna be a whole day thing !
hope my tummy wont hurt .
goodbye for now.

IT'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL ! ):
i'm like SERIOUSLY sad .
recieved results today !
really bad ?
yeah .
it's like got back our results than sharon said something about missing the class.
loving the class. well , theENTIRE class started crying .
yeah . you know how horrible it is !
gosh ! i've never seen people cry like tht before.
then i stopped crying.
everyone else stopped and started once again.
i told myself not too luh and yeah, i didnt.
AMANDA'S A STRONG GIRL ! tht's wht i told myself.
so i hold on till sch ended and all of us were outside
and i started crying cos of sotong ! rarr.
go sing the "home" song.
the national day one !
wah piang. cry like mad pls !
and there's no one to cheer me up !
except ourselves and my juniors.
thanks luxuan, chloe, qiny yu, jolene, iona and those who there.
i couldnt see who lah, cos i cry too much xD
well then , i pon-ed choir.
cos i was feeling unwell.
yeah then i went to sandra's house to do our class party stuff for tmr ! (:
had loads of fun luh !
but DUH, my tummy still hurts ! ):
man, got real high.
me, des, jolene, ariane and steph were there.
yupp ! (:
did our stuff then i walked home.
yeah . sms-ed kai all the way !
thanks for cheering me up ! LOVES.
be honoured your name is here !
hahahah !
well so anyways,
class party is tomorrow !
man , i SO happy !
more happy moments !
it'll be treasured forever in my secondary school life !
LOVE YOU GUYS ! 205 FOREVER.

WENT OUT YESTERDAY :D
hari raya holiday. hahaha.
FUN PLEASE :D
tickling sessions ! LOL.
well, went out with deb, mum drove us to cityhall.
met des, kenric and raf there.
then walked over to marina,
chit chatted, and someone wanted me to scream,
i forgot who. lols.
so anyway , went over ,
then erhm shopped .
my sis shopped tht is .
then erhm ,
walked scrolled stoned . haha .
then took a train down to town (:
walked over to 7 11, wanted to a drink ,
stood there and stone and think of wht to buy.
and finally, we thought of pink dolphin.
"dont drink beyond the pink dolphin ! if not it'll die ! "
hahah ! doesnt it sound familiar .
then walked over to cini , then heeren.
or is it, heeren then cini ?
i cant remember.
i remember walking round cini , tickling each other ,
screaming at the top of out voices and running away .
LOL. oh then kai came .
strolled somemore , more tickling sessions.
haha ! then went over to heeren.
saw des's jiejie - desebelle .
she wanted to see how kenric look like then he ran to dont know go where.
lols .
and stupid raf made me lose my 50 cents ! ):
cos we were buying lollies then he go twist tht dumb machine.
idiot xD
oh wells , then erhm , strolled somemore and left at about 6 ?
yeah . went to orchard mrt , took a photo. hah, we look hilarious.
is like we just stood there saying, "want to take anot ?"
and like after missing a train, we agreed xD
then this lady came up to us and ask how old we were.
and des just said "18." and the lady was like good.
abit weird lah. des arh . tsktsk. liar. lols.
then the train came.
so me, des and deb left and i dont know wht happen to the other 3 .
LOL.
yupp. well, just to say, it was FUN :D
LOVED IT ALOT. i wanna go out more (:

i'm missing you day and night.

i cant sleep.
just finish talking to kenric, kai and des.
well, chatted and talked nonsense.
they heard my WHAT?! the high high pitched one. heh.
shopping tomorrow ! :D
i'm happy ! going out with deb. LOVES.
sister shopping outing.
but only for a few hours.
maybe go town then after tht go marina?
or else town whole day.
see first luh. yeah.
oh oh, then need to get like the carnival thingy with vern.
so headache can ! hais.
*smacks forehead*
i'm super tired already.

Dear Lord,
please give me the strength to carry on.
replenish all my energy lost in everything i do.
thank you Lord.
amen (:

i just hope that i can survivee.
now after camy auditions.
awaiting for results.
man, i dont know how scared i'll be.
ohmyy. i have too many things to do.
too many things to commit to,
then yb also ask for the youth confrence.
help take care of the younger ones.

i pray for the youth confrence too Lord,
i pray Lord that whoever is bringing their friends,
Lord i pray that their friends will come to know you
and that even if they dont want to
they'll have an enjoyable time.
amen(:

another prayer request.
maybe i should sleep soon.
good night*
AMANDAlovesYOU* :D

CAMY AUDITIONS TODAY ! :D
i was rather afraid and nervous lah. but i'm okay now (:
well, sang shout your fame, all for love and still :D
did the interview, sang the songs, did range, beats, site singing and some others.
there were eight components. and like, those who tested me was kendice and joey !
they are REALLY GOOD singers luh !
yeah. oh wells, sang, gave comments, luckily i passed.
but i went flat, sang abit off.
heh xD and i kept saying sorry, i'm weird ! mymy.
well, cell went well, service went well yeah(:

i'm sorry if i've hurt you,
it just wasnt meant to be.

CAMY AUDITIONS TOMORROW !
OHNO.I'M SUPER UBER SCARED PLEASE ! ):
hope i do well :D

well, all about ystd, the outing was fun! hahaha.
well, schooled yesterday, had some kickboxing excersise thingy,
did half way, gave up, went to the back and then sat down with sharon.
then walked over to lailin and the chairs, fell asleep there and got woken up by tht dumb guy saying tht those who were sitting there cant be sleeping, if you're sick.
like WTH?! if you're sick you will get tired and will sleep right ?
then he dont let us sleep, he thinks he's the sch authority arh ! idiot.
then results came back, wah piangg, 58.8 % , crapped up man,
i'm gonna get into 304 ! ): i wanna go to 305 ! i'm gonna appeal ! I DONT CARE.
well then sch ended, went home, showered and met des.
took 36 to town, did ur stuff then went to look for sharon, steph, ariane, reika, chimi and christine ! :D LOVE THEM ALOT ALOT.
well, then took neos with sharon, ariane, steph and des.
cos reika, chimi and christine had to go ):
well, took neos, walk walk, stalk people, got stalked. ahahha.
yeah. made new friends, double Ks! xD hahaha.
we know ONLY (:
yeah. so tht's about it.
today;
went for tuition just now, damn boring.
have to learn 135 cheng yu by next week ! OH MAN ):
oh wells, next week last tuition till december, so not so bad luh. heh.
i shall end here (:
GOODBYE.
AMANDAlovesYOU*
15 DAYS TO SHANGHAI.

isnt it suppose to be the monsoon season now ? well, there's the haze, NOT the rain ! ):
RAIN RAIN please come! BUT not tomorrow. hahah.
well, it isnt raining outside, it's raining indoors.
people crying. dissapointment or whatever lah.
seen many cry this ENTIRE week . must be dissapointment i guess .
or some are just tired and finally letting go of their feelings and crying it out ?
well, i didnt cry , which is GOOD :D
oh wells , whoever has or IS gonna cry, please DONT okay !
i dont mind getting flooded by rain BUT not by tears.
it's too.....emo ! oh wells .
i just wanna tell those who cried, CHEER UP DARLINGS ! I LOVE YOU ! and so do the people around you :D yeah ! *BEAMS*

wells, ms w called us for drama meeting today. drama camp is 4 days and on the second last week of december, before christmas, man, i have LOADS of things please. i'm SUPER UBER BUSY already ! ):

22nd oct - CAMY auditions
5th to 15th nov - suzhou trip
26&31 oct, 2&23-25 nov - choir and choir camp.
27 oct - class party
somewhere in dec - christmas carnival
10th to 13th dec - youth confrence

see how poor me is SO busy ): aww, so if you wanna go out, PLEASE tell in advance, haha, it sounds like as if ppl is gonna book me. LOL. and camy auditions, my saturdays are gonna be pack ! OH MAN, tiring please ): i SO need to get my shedule right, somemore next year sec THREE, *faints* , more responsibilities, somemore i need to prepare for choir camp, man, i SO gonna die lah ! and meetings are on saturdays ! DONT CLASH WITH CAMY PRACTICE PLEASE. thank you ! (: hahahah. but i think practice will start after o lvls luh, cos got quite a bunch taking o lvls. yeah. MANY MANY birthdays coming up too ! :D

today - teresa * HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
31st oct - cecilia, joshtan
6th nov - jd
8th nov - rebecca
11th nov - stephanie NU ER (:
14th nov - hoho (:
16th nov - sharon SPEC TWIN (:
18th nov - karina
20th nov - lil brother

seeeeee. so many many birthdays ! some will get presents and some will get happy birthday wishes ! =X heh heh. i aint tht rich to buy for all. hahah ! yeah. OH WELLS, i shall end (:
GOODBYE.
AMANDAlovesYOU* :D

got back MORE marks.

DRAMA.
performance : 52/100
*crapped up man! ):
total : 58/100
*whines* see my marks. so s***, argh ! D:

GEOG
section A : 8 half /15
section B : 49 half / 85
total : 58/100

ART.
total : 71/100
*my ONE AND ONLY sub which i'm happy for.

man, my marks are like CRAP please. study like s*** and my marks are ALL 50+ and 60+ not even a SINGLE A luh! except art (: or else.. GRAHH. i'm happy for art but not for the rest. at least i passed english and chinese, i thought i failed. science and maths are a TOTAL DISSAPOINTMENT. ): HAIS . sad man . REAL sad. oh wells, i hope i get into 305 ! the class i want to get into (: yeah.
went to pp just now with des, sandra, jolene, ariane and brandon. me and ariane left first. yeah. talked and all, kanna suan-ed. blah!

ariane my dear, it's okay to feel uncomfortable, think about wht i said lah, maybe it'll work? :D

MY LOVES;
I LOVE DESERIE jiejie twintwintwin (:
I LOVE SANDRA niece (:
I LOVE STEPHANIE nu er (:
I LOVE JADE nu er (:
I LOVE SHARON aayee (:
I LOVE SOTONG korkor twintwin (:
I LOVE SZEMIN meimei twin (:
I LOVE JULIANA da sao (:
I LOVE CHIMI ex laogong (:
I LOVE VERONICA doodoo nu er (:
I LOVE CRYSTAL tayy (:
I LOVE LAILIN smartiee (:
I LOVE 205 ! (:
I LOVE IONA son (:
I LOVE JOLENE tan nephew (:
I LOVE VANESSA soh (:
I LOVE LYDIA heeheehee (:
I LOVE NICOLE tan rui min (:
I LOVE PHYLLIS chong shi min (:
I LOVE PHUI SEE amanda (:
I LOVE JANICE soon shu xian (:
I LOVE JESSIE tan (:
I LOVE JEREMY god brother (:
I LOVE SHAWN lee kor (:
I LOVE JOSHUA tan kor (:
I LOVE JOEL boey kor (:
I LOVE DANIEL hohoho (:
I LOVE SAMUEL tan (:
I LOVE LANZ toh (:
I LOVE JOSHUA toh (:
I LOVE R-AGE FAMILY :D
and most of all,
I LOVE GOD ! (:
JESUS CHRIST ! :D

random list of I LOVE YOUs :D
dont mind if your name aint there x)
and some random names,
dont ask why it's there. heh.

my marks are here.
okay, not all but some,
yeah . not say VERY well done or VERY bad ,
but okay lahh. can pass. x) YEAH.

DRAMA
section A : 20/25
section B : 13/25
practical : not sure.

CHINESE

ying yong wen : 7.5/10
compo : 13/25
paper 2 : 23.5/50 (crap)
oral : 8/10
overall : 57
*quite happy luh (: cos i passed ! i thought i would fail.

ENGLISH
overall : 57.7
*oh man. but at least i passed, heh.

then had a talk about our combinations for next year.
planning to take double science, bio chem.
the A and E maths.
core lit and geog elect.
drama elect dont know replace wht.
then the usual subs. yeah. tht's tht.
hope can get into 305 !
THE CLASS I WANT TO GET INTO :D

exams are over.
makes my life boring.
NO LESSONS.
NO HOMEWORK.
NO PRESSURE.
STRESS FREE.
i'm seriously not use to it! ):
i need homework!
i want to study,
but too lazy to study.
someone please say i'm weird !
man , it's really weird.
okayy. countdown,
23 DAYS TO SHANGHAI ! :D
i'm happy AND excited !
YAY,
it's gonna be SOOO fun !
i'm sure :D
oh wells.
got back some marks today.
not as good as i thought it would be. rather surprising.

this is only the paper score for ca4.

english: 44.4 (not the full thing yet)
*compre : 10/25 (fail)
*summary : 8/25 (fail)
*compo paper ONE : 24/30 (pass)
*situational writing : havent give back.
i'm only happy with compo paper ONE. blah !

maths : 64/100 (i aint happy about it)
*paperONE : 36/50 (pass but not so good)
*paperTWO : 28/50 (not good either. boderline pass)

science : 69.5/100 (just HALF more mark to 70 ! RARR.)

I'M SERIOUSLY NOT HAPPY BOUT MY SCORE SO FAR.
it's said through my score. damn crapped up.
ohwells, i still have the whole year grades to add together,
dont think it's THAT bad. so cheer up manda, you can do better (:

I HAD THE VACCIANTION TODAY! ):
pain luh ! PIANG EH ! ):
now i cant lift up or overstretch my left arm or else i'll start screaming ! x)
it's SUPER UBER PAINFUL please.
blahh. so dumb lah..
anyways, then des and i went to PP.
damn sian luh. and then met aaron and brandon and soon later we left.
so smart right? hah.
and then des, brandon and aaron go find sandra,
leaving me all alone.
and si brandon make me si bei malu can !
somemore in sch uni leh !
piangg eh !
malu like shit lah !TSK.
say BYE until damn loud !
malu until dont even dare to look around lah !
only can complain to sandra on the phone !
ahahah ! my phone bill free one arh?
LOL. dumb sia.
PAISEH LIKE SHIT?!
then come home..now, damn sian luh ! x)
i shall go sleep!
my arm hurts !

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away



I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away



If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares



I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone



If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares



All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know
I'll be there
Oh, yeah



If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares



Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
-end-
I JUST LOVE THIS SONG :D

went to des's house today! (:
hahah. yeah. woke up at 8:57am just to msg mummy and she only replied at 11+ and i was out already x)
OPPS. anyways, went to PP, waited for A and B.
damn slow lah they all. talk talk. laugh laugh,
UBER FUNNY PLEASE.
jolene was there too !
naughty lah ! TSKTSKTSK.
she/he has parents now !
DESERIE MUMMY AND BRANDON DADDY!
hahaha ! dont kill me.des is SO gonna kill me.
anyways, then erhm, went back to des's house.
and there they were, A and B.
and then went up, cooked, ate, and watched ghost ship.
i didnt really watch,
and SANDRA CAN COOK ! (she wants it here)
hahh ! AUNTY MANDA IS NICE !
hahah x) i cooked too!
and so did DESERIE !
jolene was the PIG lah !
ONLY KNOW HOW TO EAT EAT EAT.
tsktsk. then erhm..
went home at about 215?
wanted to go at 2 ,
but SOME PEOPLE made me wait for A and B to come back.
you mean people ! block door block everything.
i jump down lah ! easiest way.
i actually said tht, the jumping down part. hahah.
well then, walked up cos the lift at des's level couldnt work,
and found some people there.
and A got tricked by B to walk me down. NONSENSE okay.
so RETARDED. damn paiseh can !
talktalk in the lift then walked out, saw desebelle
and walked home(:
well, i walk quite fast leh, 15-20 mins.
BUT, my leg pain lah! ):
but overall,TODAY WAS FUN ! :D
time to do art and practice chinese oral,
man, i havent even started for art ! xD

I'M BLOGGING COS SOMEONE MADE ME DO IT x)
hahah ! anyways, my new friends are A, B, C (:
okay, not really C but oh wells.
and became closer to SOME juniors.
chloe, luxuan,qing yu, belle, jolene(:
hahah ! some really INSANE and HIGH people who laughs NON-STOP.
NODDDY IN TOYLAND x)
only some knows wht tht means.
and tht's all. (:
be happy i blogged.
AHAHHA.

okay, i realise my blog is KINDA dead, so i shall update.
english, cheena, geog, lit, science and maths paper ONE is over (:
well, tht's GOOD in a way luh. yeah.
man, the maths paper lasted for like ONE hour only. blah, so no fun.
okay, i'm gonna go out to study.
TATA(:

just a song tht i heard over the radio. i think it's kinda nice (:

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Confine me
Make up your mind

Should I let you fall
Lose it all
So maybe you can remember yourself
Can't keep believing
We're only deceiving ourselves
And I'm sick of the lie
And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Confine me
Make up your mind

Couldn't take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
Selfishly hated
No wonder you're jaded
You can't play the victim this time
And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Confine me
Make up your mind

You never call me when you're sober
You only want it cause it's over
It's over

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I?
You were never mine!

So don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
Don't lie to me
Just get your things
I've made up your mind
-end-
nice right? I LOVE IT.